For we know that the law is divinely inspired and comes from the spiritual realm, but I am a human being made of flesh and trafficked as a slave under sin’s authority.
Romans 7:14 TPT
I Dont Want Fanfare
I was spending sometime with God … I call it dates with Jesus… and I was praying and eating, when the Holy Spirit told me to go to Romans 12 in TPT… Every word in that chapter I felt in my core. In this hard season of betrayal, loneliness, and rejection (especially for being a prophet) I have been battling heavy depression. Depressed because everyone wants a prophetic word about “purpose” but nobody wants to hear repent and turn from your wicked ways. If its not about a new house, car, a million dollars then no one wants to hear the prophet.. but instead they get blinded by jealousy and do everything in their power to hurt a prophet … why ? Because they don’t see that a prophet is still human.
Dealing With Betrayel and Jealousy
Anger is cruel, and wrath is like a flood, but jealousy is even more dangerous.
Proverbs 27:4 NLT
It amazes me how people can be so jealous of a spiritual gift, bible knowledge, your willingness to fast and pray, and what God is doing for you because THEY are to lazy to go through the process.
They literally dont see
- All of the times you have battled depression and suicide
- The times you hated being a prophet, a leader, or the day you were born
- The times you were homeless fasting and praying for deliverance
And yet… They dont care…. because they’re jealous… But what do you do when it’s someone that you loved ?
Pray and Get Closer To God
Honestly… I’ve been through the God I hate you phase… and where did it mostly stem from ? People. When I was abused as a child by religious “people” they put Bible verses to justify what they were doing… When I opened my heart and finally told about my pain … it was people that hurt me. And what did I do ? Get angry at God. BUT now after fighting for my relationship with God through prayer and fasting I literally refuse to allow Satan to come against my relationship with Christ …
Do not let us agree to do wrong things. Keep us safe from Satan .” ’ Then Jesus said, ‘When other people do wrong things against you, you must forgive them. Then God, your Father in heaven , will also forgive you for the wrong things that you have done. But if you do not forgive other people, then your Father will not forgive you.’
Matthew 6:13-15 EASY
Is Everyone One A Bad Person ?
No… was Peter bad when he denied Christ ? Is not Peter a matriarch and a Apostle ? Doesn’t God use Peter through his shadow?
As a result, people carried their sick friends into the streets and put them on beds and mats . They hoped that Peter would pass that way and make their sick friends well again. They just wanted Peter’s shadow to touch them. Many people also came into Jerusalem from the small towns near the city. They brought their sick friends with them. Some of those sick people had bad spirits that gave them trouble. God caused all these sick people to become well again.
Acts 5:15-16 EASY
I believe God allowed us to see both sides of Peter so that we can grasp …. that we are literally HUMAN! In other words stop abusing prophetic people and Apostles because you’re jealous…. (even though you’re going to do it… Don’t be mad when God destroys you *cough cough* Psalms 105:15 )
I love this verse in The Message Bible
When he came back to his disciples, he found them sound asleep. He said to Peter, “Can’t you stick it out with me a single hour? Stay alert; be in prayer so you don’t wander into temptation without even knowing you’re in danger. There is a part of you that is eager, ready for anything in God. But there’s another part that’s as lazy as an old dog sleeping by the fire.”
Matthew 26:40-41 MSG
You know what this means to me ? I’ve accepted the fact that I may believe in the Apostolic , I know who I am in Christ when the time is right , and I may know my purpose … but I’m still human. And so are your Apostles, prophets, evangelists, pastors, and teachers. Stop abusing them.
This Is A Warning : God Is About To Expose Abusive Marriages In The Church. Kick Out The Abusive Behavior And Gather Fruit Of The Spirit.
Love Mixed With Faith