Hebrews 4:15 New International Version (NIV)
15 For we do not have a high priest who is unable to empathize with our weaknesses, but we have one who has been tempted in every way, just as we are—yet he did not sin.
I am child abuse survivor. I have many testimonies of what God has delivered me from. When I was a child I was raped, abused, I would go to school with bruises on my body, someone in my family tried something, and I was made fun of for incest.
When I was younger I used to listen to bad music to make my self feel better. Music about sex, and other things.
I just wanted a mental escape from what I had been through.
I didn’t want a relationship with God… because my family were “Christians” so I wanted nothing to do with him.
But certain music opens portals to fantasy..
Because Of My Abuse
I tried to find love in boys, boyfriends, in money, and other things and I ended up with nothing in the end. Honestly, my walk with God is not easy. Every day I try to figure how to just be ok.
This is hard, because when you are anointed people get jealous.. so it doesn’t matter what happened to you in their eyes they just want to hurt you.
In times like these you have to give it all to God.
This is not to be paranoid, or put you in a ungodly isolation but to steer you to the Father.
Psalms 20:7 says,
7 Some trust in chariots and
some in horses,
but we trust in the name of the Lord our God.
Sometimes When God Closes A DOOR
It is purely to protect you… You may not see it right now… but soon very soon God is going to show you. The closed door was a shield from false prophets who would have preyed on your emotions, abusive spiritual mothers who are really Jezebel, and he shielded you from jealous friends who would have hurt you beyond repair.
In these wilderness seasons… God is calling for prayer. Turn off your phone, get silent, and get in HIS presence…
If the Holy Spirit releases you to let go of that abusive boyfriend… Then let him go…
If God tells you its time to find a different church home.. then be obedient
If God says let go of idols, such as spiritual parents then let it go…
Or if you are in a abusive marriage , please listen to God… let it go.
Loved Mixed With Faith ❤ ,